JUST BECAUSE WE PRETEND THE FEELINGS AREN’T THERE DOESN’T MAKE THEM GO AWAY.

Knowing is better than wondering, and even the biggest failures, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying

Sometimes, you never really realize how keeping quiet hurts.

But what you will really see is how hard it is to stay so strong when nothing is right, & everything is wrong.

Why am I so afraid that I'd lose you but at the same time, you're not even mine to begin with. Why is that fear so strong, and why are these feelings so real?

Do you ever wonder if you died tomorrow, he would think, 'I should have told her…'?

You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you, and yet you can never have them…when the moment you can’t feel them under your fingertips you miss them? Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.. Don’t be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart…but if you don’t you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn’t. You can’t tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own…when you least expect it, or even when you don’t want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much…for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all. Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for your best-friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else? Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid…afraid of what we don’t know, afraid of what others will think, afraid about what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie…the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had. No one waits forever..